Before I was afflicted I went astray;

As I tried to stay in the field as the year end approached but I realise that is purely flesh. I just try to do something by myself but that something I do gone wrong somehow and seems nothing move no matter how hard I tried. Even it was my good intention I have no peace in my heart and many things become the stumbling blocks and felt guilty of my fault even many crticisms from my partner K.Dum mentioned a lot but I don't see until I humble myself and pray. As I pushed hard many things bounced back even harder. To force people to know God through the scipture better is only my own thinking and my good intention. I came to realise from the God's Word :

Proverbs 16:9 A person may plan his own journey, but the LORD directs his steps.
and
Proverbs 19:21 Many plans are in the human heart, but the advice of the LORD will endure.


My impulse decisions mention out at my face and one night these Scripture came to me.

James 1:12 Blessed are those who endure when they are tested. When they pass the test, they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

I was quite frustrated with those aged folks who lame, alchoholic and take advantages but God see them otherwise. He loves them. I lost my joy of the Lord, Bro. Paul mentioned to me during his staying with me. I forgot that the tests will come to our lives and thought that I can carry on by my own strength until I got lost out of the way that I suppose to go. I don't really know the way "how to make it" but in Job 23:10 I can't find him because he knows the road I take. When he tests me, I'll come out as pure as gold. When God is finished with me things will come out well.

I felt like there is no end no light of what I am going to do. I know that He is with us all the time but I am not act like it, we 're not talked like it. The problem is that I don't really believe it.


Apostle James told us in
James 1:6 When you ask for something, don't have any doubts. A person who has doubts is like a wave that is blown by the wind and tossed by the sea.
James1:7 A person who has doubts shouldn't expect to receive anything from the Lord.

.....You should ask God, and he will give it to you. God is generous to everyone and doesn't find fault with them.


This is the lady who accepted Christ first time on the day I started to go in this village. She passed away on 18 December peacefully. Thanks God that He allows us to know before hand as we went to her place on irregular visit. We can not reason out why we want to go there on that Friday. As we went we stopped at our unusual place to visit people we know long time back but to be told that Pah Keong has gone sleep. When we reached her house her picture was on the shelf. She was cremated in the temple near-by a day before.



Today 29 December we went to the village as usual and as I shared about the heaven in Revelation we were told that Pah Samruay was passed away 2 days ago. Many uneasiness of many things become light. The deal that we have to discuss with the landlord about allow her to stay in that place is out. The rented land of the house she built on in the deal we have to resonsible will be ceased. The Lord even provided the way to get back to the previous location under the tree with out loosing face. He take care of us that much. Things that bind us broken we don't have to give up, we don't have to run away. We don't have to worry about where and when we are working with Him. He knows the road I take. When he tests me, I'll come out as pure as gold.

He is our God our Lord Jesus Christ

Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.

Hebrews13:9 Don't get carried away by all kinds of unfamiliar teachings. Gaining inner strength from God's kindness is good for us. This strength does not come from following rules about food, rules that don't help those who follow them.