It started after "Noon's last week" at work, they came to seek K.Dum's advice. After we talked about this one day and I ended up with why don't we pray about this. What I heard K.Dum said is "As for me I do not have to pray but if you want to pray you pray by yourself, for me I am sure if I want to do anything I will go ahead". I stunned from my co-partner in the field answered. After that many days I kept catching what he said. Many times after this incident I noticed how my partner become so arrogant in talking to others. My ignorance went hay while when he comment of me in very thing. I don't know what to do when I started to go out to particular place he will give comment. That whole week we unable to achieve any thing. He started commenting the past action. The last one when I mention about the youth coming in. He started comment what happened in the past as we were looking for the place to send visitor there. It sounded like he disagreed to anything I do. I kneel down to the Lord of what is going on and complained to Him of why my partner is so proud of himself in everything and act like little another Holy Spirit checking on every single move I do. Things we used to do now become things that I can not expect what he will respond. Many negative advices of he don't agree with that and this. Our conversation's objective getting narrower. I dare not speak to him as a Friend like before but anyway I did not stop praying asking God why he is being that way.
Numt came to see me one evening and I mentioned about that and seemed we understand more. I started crumbing about what he behave and have comment in my heart even thinking quitting the work I believed that come from Him. For me success and not success I think I really don't care because the work I do I do with Him. We committed the work to Him every time I do. I asked for His guidance and leading so if He allow me to fail I will accept because I do not really know what to do, how to do His work. I do from my whatever I have.At first I take note on what he advise but so many things I suspected something went wrong and we can not work together any more. I reluctance to talk to him and hear his negative comment even to go and pick him up for lunch and I even try to run away from the situation. During that period I keep asking the Lord and on that very day Ephesian chapter 4 verse 31 hit me hard. The verse says
Ephesians 4:30 Don't give God's Holy Spirit any reason to be upset with you. He has put his seal on you for the day you will be set free from the world of sin.
Ephesians 4:31 Get rid of your bitterness, hot tempers, anger, loud quarreling, cursing, and hatred.
Ephesians 4:32 Be kind to each other, sympathetic, forgiving each other as God has forgiven you through Christ.
I prayed back and asked the Lord what this verse meant for this situation and what shall I do.
That lunch time I went to see him early and told him that we need to talk and clear this nonsenses out. I came out with the Bible in my hand. I started to pray then asked him for his forgiveness that I had a grudge against him from his comments few days before also added that I do not want to hold that bitterness anymore and that the reason why I do this asking for his forgiveness. Then we started talking about the whole situation but this time all cloudy situation did not depressed me like at the beginning. The burden has lifted up just from what I started to ask for his forgiveness he did not know about. I have also told him that Romans 8:28 become real from his comments.
Romans 8:26 At the same time the Spirit also helps us in our weakness, because we don't know how to pray for what we need. But the Spirit intercedes along with our groans that cannot be expressed in words.
Romans 8:27 The one who searches our hearts knows what the Spirit has in mind. The Spirit intercedes for God's people the way God wants him to.
Romans 8:28 We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God-those whom he has called according to his plan.
I add more story to this situation from previously left out due to time constraint and try to finish it by telling that what happened not only on my side but from my partner's side as well so I can conclude that the revelation to this answer to Ephesians 4:31 covered both sides or on his side as well. When he told to me that the Lord revealed to him some verse from Genesis 1:26 Then God said, "Let us make humans in our image, in our likeness. This is the verse that come to him to tel him that "you (my partner) have been created in His (God's) image but you (my partner) are not God".
To me whatever he acted to be like God even checking my incompetent and deed including many comments should not have been done that are between him and God. Anyway I don't mind to listen to the constructive comments from him in anyway and hear his discusion with god with open mind. God tempted us to bring the best out of us but not lead us to sin but the enemies do to deceive us to see us split, break, even stumble etc. Thank You Lord. You told us to watch and pray.
Ephesians 4:29 Don't say anything that would hurt another person. Instead, speak only what is good so that you can give help wherever it is needed. That way, what you say will help those who hear you.
This is God's work both ways the Salvation belongs to him. Then I know all comments, talking bad, criticism, negative thoughts etc. are not from God but from the enemy. Thanks God for His Salvation before the relationship went sore.
Revelation 7:10 and crying out in a loud voice, "Salvation belongs to our God, who sits on the throne, and to the lamb!"
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